Thursday, December 16, 2004

I Just Feel Yucky…

Was informed by Bill my lovely Husband that I can’t be grumpy. I need to pretend. I’ve told him before that I’m not going to just smile and bounce around like a deranged idiot. So I’m kind of on the fence on this one. I have a problem with people who are fake, and I don’t want to be fake I also don’t want to be seen as miserable either. I’m a passionate person, and this means I feel things deeply, and I wear my heart on my sleeve. So there are times that Bill & I butt heads about this. He at times feels I take things to seriously, that I need to lighten up, and at times he’s right. Today it dawned on me though the reason I take things seriously is because of my passion. It’s that same passion that loves him, stands up for him (with my Step Dad), defends him & Jeremy. So yes I agree there are times I may take innocent teasing too much to heart ie I’m either grumpy, being passionate whatever. But to be told I can’t be grumpy, by the guy who during the school term is grumpy and defends it by saying I have tests, assignments due or just being tired, and we are expected to understand. Well I want the same understanding. I too get grumpy (See I’m such a bear…lol and I’m working on it), tired and stressed. This has been an issue for years with us, but this is also one of the things that make us special. He’s even tempered not much gets under his skin. I’m passionate, admittedly moody at times (come on with women’s hormones what women isn’t occasionally moody), yes I easily cry, but I also easily laugh (hence I wear my heart on my sleeve). I’ve always figured we balance each other out, but there are the times we just don’t “get” each other, and I guess that’s what was happening this morning. Wasn’t a major fight just frustration that was all fixed by the time I got to work except now it has made me think. As I don’t want to be thought of as a miserable wife, and mother. So I guess I do need to work on my attitude a bit. Heck no one is perfect, and if I were then there’d be trouble…lol.

Tonight is dinner at my Dad’s so keeping a positive attitude that everything will go smoothly.

~Stitching News~
Last night model night started on the border, and wow I love the floss the designer chose. It is gorgeous. I’m going to use it to make myself a bookmark. It is wonderful.

Not much stitching planned for tonight as I’m going out for dinner.


Kitty said...

I know just what you mean. DBF calls me an old grouch a lot of the time for just the same reasons. OTOH I know he doesn't really mean it most of the time. It is a stressful time of year though - Hugs.

Retta said...

I'm onthe grouchy moody disorderly female list ;) Fortunately DH deals with it quite well and the kids say "DAD mom is in a mooooood again fix her"
these days I cry at the drop of a hat (often for no reason LOL) to which DH does NOT get at all, heck sometimes I don't get it either :p
I'm sure in the grand scheme of things you and Bill balance each other out nicely!

Stacey said...

Yup Retta you are very correct we do balance each other out. That's for sure.